amidst sad news
I woke up this morning to the following email in my inbox from Lisa Kelly at Lifeline:
I have some sad news and I don’t know how to tell you other than to just tell you. I just received word that our little Paul died. He caught a bad cold and it went into his lungs. I know this is very hard and my heart is breaking as is yours. We become so very attached to these special little ones. Thank you for advocating for him and the prayers you have said. I know he is in Heaven with our Heavenly Father and whole again and that there is no better place to be, but still so very hard.
Little Paul...I advocated for him in this post.
He grabbed my heart because of his heart surgery being last year at the same time as Kevin's.
It is unmistakable why this little guy tugged my heart. God did that. God knew Paul needed our prayers. Paul did not die alone. I know God was holding him. God loved him. I BELIEVE THAT.
I weep for Paul and for what might have been....
The enemy would like us to sink in despair with those thoughts "Oh, he died without a family" or "Oh, he didn't have anyone to hold him" or "Oh, if only he could've been adopted, he might would have received better medical care"
No, I say! Paul DID have a family. US. YOU AND ME, praying for him.
No, I say! Paul DID have Someone holding him! His Heavenly Father who loves the orphans. God did not forget Paul.
No, I say! God is sovereign and HE knows the number of our days (thank you Paula for that reminder)
But still, I weep for little Paul.
I can't help but remember being at New Day last year when little Tristan died. How we sat shoulder to shoulder, knee to knee, and wept for him. Seeing his nannies' red, raw eyes from their grief.
SO VERY SAD. And yet--there is beauty in the grief. I've seen such beauty in grief these days with all the overwhelming loss in the tornadoes. And the Body of Christ bringing LIGHT to the darkness. Maybe that is the beauty in the grief. The HOPE we have in CHRIST. The joy in the pain...
God has a plan in all of this. Was Paul's life a waste? OF COURSE NOT! His little life can bring GOD GLORY still. I pray God will be glorified through Paul, through this post, through this sad news.
And I would be remiss if I did not state the reality that there are millions of children like Paul. And there are millions of people like you and me. And we are commanded to care for the orphan. And it's not too late for millions.
Pray. What does God want you to do? He will show you. Pray more. Where does God want you? He will guide you. Pray even more. What is He telling you in His Word? Pray on your face before Him. Seek Him and He will show you WHO TO CARE FOR.